my first double post in a day! :O

iphone
dumb dumb peixuan locked mah iphone for a total of 81 minutes yesterday. LOSER. go away. D:
most people use their iphones to play games, i use mine to surf the net. :D woohoo.

song are fun
THIS is awesome. :D

i have suddenly run out of topics. this post seems to be redundant. ._. oh well. "POST!":D

60th post! :D

lucifer
is hard to dance. half an hour and i cant get the first 20 seconds right. too fast! D: i think i need step by step. haha. or maybe im just not cut out to be a dancer. :P i shall give up this project for now. i will continue sometime. in the far future. HAHA. :D

bored
theres nothing to do. nothing to do. i think i'll go write my fanfic. chapter 2! :O woohoo. should occupy me for an hour or so. :D

internet connection
in my room is not as fast as in my living room. ): bleh. but i dont feel like going down. cause the sun is too bright. :D

bleh bleh bleh. this is a boring post. maybe i'll post again later.

heyhellohi!

dancing
i shall learn how to dance lucifer! probably not a good song to start learning how to dance with, as its oh-so-fast. ._. i shall at least try to get the first 1 minuteish of the video tomorrow. haha. :D i shall spend tomorrow looking at the mirrored version and learning how to dance. :D gah. even looking at a slow version, its so hard to catch. so hard to remember since when you try to dance to the actual song, its sooo much faster. haha. oh well. shall see how tomorrow. :D qixuan tried to teach me, but i couldnt grasp it, and we only spent a minute or two on it. after that we tried to remember down. can remember, but i think we forgot a small part of a step. cause it seems weird. oh well. :D

NEX
is kind of huge. but walkways are not very big. smaller than vivo. but not bad overall. just, the layout of the place is kind of confusing. and not all the shops are open. :O

saw
kuanyung and wyekit. :D nice to see them after such a long time. not that close of a friend with them though. thinking back, i wasnt actually close to alot of people during primary school. people i am close to in secondary school, TREASURE ME. :D ok, that was thick-skinned. haha. i dont care.

i am bored. therefore i shall spend tomorrow dancing. if something doesnt suddenly crop up. haha. lalala. i should seriously stop walking in the rain. i think i will fall sick again. then i'll sicken and die. oh well. i am in a good mood. i like shark in the water. oh well. :D GOODNIGHT PEOPLE!

banananananana. today was boring. my hair got cut off. :O

boredom
can make people do many things. i read finish a 251 page book in a few hours. then got bored, made a formspring, and felt like reading another book. started the first chapter, then got bored again. then i wrote a random fanfic and posted it up somewhere. if you find it, and discover what it is, you probably wont know its me. cause it doesnt have my name at all! HAHAHA. then i started singing random songs. i cant hit the notes anymore! :O sad, sad.

sing
so i shall sing with huixin and qiannong, can we decide what song to sing, so can practice? LOL. btw, who has the thingies to record anyway. ._. oh well. would help to pass time anyway.

notes
i have discovered this is useful for lyrics use. i have also discovered a faster way rather than to type one word by one word into iphone. ): but i got too bored of getting lyrics, so i ended up with only 4 song lyrics. lalala. :O

formspring
if you have time, go ask me stuff. i need things to pass my time.

my number
has changed, in case you havent realized. i shall not disclose my new number here, later i get stalked by people. if you want my new number, you can message my old phone, but i dont check often. so you can wait. :D

lalallalal.my hair is short now. bleh. wanted to grow it long, but then again, mother was did not allow me to. she also did not allow me to dye my hair. she did however, ask me if i wanted to change school. ._.

BABY THERES A SHARK IN THE WATER
THERES SOMETHING UNDERNEATH MY BED
why would a shark be under your bed? ._.

ohwell. interesting stuff. :D

HELLO! random fact spammage. :O

1 in 12 people have sex in their sleep. It's called "sexsomnia".
:O IT IS AN ACTUALLY DISEASE! so people have sex in their sleep. it includes masturbation, sex, fondling etc etc. and apparantly it can be used as a defence in a rape case! cause sometimes its really unintentional. apparantly this is a kind of sleepworking. quite hilarious i think. :D

this song is quite lol.
THIS is a mashup of tiktok and california girls :O amusing.

this person tricks people into drinking his semen
THIS is one evil dude. so many upskirts also. dont learn from him. LOL. AND HE WAS A CIVILIAN OFFICER. OH MY! :O quite hilarious. me and my mom were laughing at him.

this vid
THIS is a weird advertisement. and somewhat disturbing. ._.

lala
missed openhouse cause im sick. ): coughing fits make me feel like puking. and for some reason, i taste bitter. as in, my fingers all that. dont ask me why i was licking myself.

BAWHDOFASDFOASDFAASD
ok. nothing else to add. too lazy to add actually. i shall go shower. heh heh. goodday.

56th post.

typing style
someone has said that my typing style changes when im angry or depressed. hmm. ._. apparantly when im angry i type faster, and tend to have more typos and there will be complete punctuation. for some weird reason. and it would be in complete sentences. either that or if im in a really bad mood i'll just type in really short, clipped sentences. ._. oh well. weird habits. I AM A PERSON OF WEIRD HABITS

toothless
i think i'll turn up with no teeth. either that or my braces are pushing my teeth around. heh heh. i dont like it when i just change my braces. doesnt feel nice.

sick
sick sick sick. i think im falling sick sick sick sick sick. coughing like mad the whole day. runny nose, almost vomited a few times. so i have no idea if i can still go for open house tomorrow. but how to find sub at this kind of time. if i need one. i wonder if i can just grab a person that's the morning one. oh well. im going to end up coughing myself to death. woohoo.

topics
topics topics. i have no topics. give me a topic, any topic. and no, i'm not going to repeat gay rights. :O i'll pick topics. IF YOU ACTUALLY GIVE ME TOPICS! :O

christina grimmie
rocks. (: though i think if she had better audio/video equiptment she'd be awesome. :D been following her for quite awhile.

im pretty sure my voice is breaking. mmhmm. HAH PEOPLE WHO THOUGHT I BROKE MY VOICE ALREADY! YOU WERE WRONG. HAHAHAHAHA. which would mean my voice will end up even lower than this. ._. oh well.

oh. my appeal failed. due to maths being terrible. and i had a very interesting discussion with my mother. on xinmin. and considered just changing schools. cause if i just change schools, i could most probably enter into a triple science. so yeah. had thoughts on that. haha. i think some of my primary school friends are changing schools because of this also. i actually had a discussion with my sisters and mother about this. which is rare. hmm. ._. oh well. we also had thoughts of xinmin that would probably not be wise to put here, due to the fact i might be found out and accused of slander etc etc. ._.

my mom was awesome though. i think it was mr lim who called her. so she got angry and she said :"so basically your just telling me that i cant do anything about it." cause they say also cannot change already blah blah blah. my mom is awesome. she supports me. (: i think the changing school thing is interesting though. thinking about it but yeah. you know.

oh well. i has new view of xinmin now! :D

blah blah blah. i think this is my 54th post. ._.

rain
i was walking home today and i probably should have at least tried to avoid the rain. ._. however, being the person that i am, chose to slowly walk through the rain, seeking no shelter whatsoever and purposely walking in the rain. i even had the time to look at the rain clouds. i think some other people thought i was crazy. oh well. i like the rain. however, i dont think it was the best idea, and i think i'm going to fall sick again. oh well, too late to change anything.

PSLE results
are out! apparantly the highest score this year is 278. i think. i wonder how many of my primary school people are going to come to xinmin. i doubt many of them will. i think mostly will go zhonghua etc etc. hmm. ._.

dental
my braces are now red. woohoo. cause i randomly picked a colour, and it ended up red. like bloody red. woohoo.

earpieces
i think i should stop twirling them. i kept twirling and twisting and bending my old LG ones and they ended up dead. ._. i think if i keep doing this, my apple ones are going to die too. ._. that would not be very good. but i cant help myself. subconscious bad habit! psh!

gradnight photos
are fun to look at. cause i get to see my seniors if they were to dress glamly. :O quite interesting. heh heh. btw sherry, as you read this blog, i shall compliment your dress. nice dress. :D ok. that was so random. haha.

lalala. cant really think of more topics. im still reading random books on my iphone. i think my iphone is not so much for games, but more to satisfy my love of reading. :D though searching for pdf files of books online is quite troublesome. ._. and some of them have weird typos and format. lol.

fanfic
is interesting. if i end up bored enough, i think i'll write my own one. somehow i think fanfics are mostly written by girls. hmmm. ._. oh well. i shall break the stereotypes. thank you very much.
the end. (:

REGRETS
regrets are so common, yet unavoidable. well. most of the time anyway. in retrospect, actually quite avoidable, just that we as people are too stupid. suddenly i feel damn nostalgic. now, i regret leaving YCSOG. not that anyone from YCSOG reads my blog. or anyone out there that actually knows about YCSOG. haha. go find out yourself, if your really that bored. i look back, and i miss the time i spent together with those guys. now, i see little bits of info and pictures of them now, with new members, new people, old people, new memories. and i'm not there with them, like the past. and then now i wonder, what would it be like if i never left? im pretty sure i would have rised through the ranks, at least for a certain point. but then again, who knows. anyway, its not like i can go waltzing back after so long. i miss them. sigh. but then again, i dont think they miss me, i dont think they even think of me, unless they actually see me, which i hardly do. sigh. looking through old photos of overseas trips together. camps, australia, japan, performances. out of my original batch of 10+, theres only 2 left. and i regret leaving them alone. guess i never really put in the effort. i also just realized, i still have access to YCSOG forums. haha.. guess regretting it doesnt make a difference. even if i wanted to rejoin, i dont think i will be allowed to. so thats that.

linked to this topic, think about who you're talking to before you say something that could hurt that person. it might not be offensive to other people, but it could cut the person deeply if you say something without thinking. so think it through and dont regret it.

people, make the right decision, no matter how hard. dont give it only to regret it later.

hello lovely ones.

class 204
is random. and loved. and the class blog was randomly updated. sorry, this just randomly popped into my head. :O

behkhasim
has amused me the whole day. :D orientation meeting we keep saying the same thing at the same time, then other people laughing at us. :O after that we had a random chitchat with raymond about stuff then went to buy food back, and bought food for liya too, though it got cold cause she only ate it like, 2 hours later. D: anyway, me and khasim were randomly watching one piece and i never actually watched it, so suddenly skipping to episode 450+ was quite lol. evelyn was spamming some of my iphone games to pass time. khasim amused me with this wonderful sentence "me no kuku" in response to my "you kuku". when he said it, me and evelyn looked at each other then laughed like hell, and liya was laughing at the back. khasim was like, stunned, then he thought about what he said for awhile, then he was like WTH. then he just ignore us and continue watching one piece. :D then after that, evelyn was like "ME NOT KUKU" at khasim's face and he quickly replied "我给你一粒啊!" which translated would mean, i give you one ball. so at this point, me and evelyn were laughing again. then he angry again, just ignore us. SO DAMN FUNNY. YOU HAVE BRIGHTENED MY DAY! :D

lucifer
in keeping up with my recent kpop fad, i mostly listen to kpop songs on my phone. and the most played song is lucifer, with 24 plays. :O compared to the rest, its alot, cause the rest is like, around 10 or less than that. :O so yay for shinee. haha. you realize you mostly see fangirls, you dont really see fanboys. hmmm. :O

tuition
in a long time, i will have tuition again. tomorrow! which is oh-so-awesome since i haven't dont my homework. D: lalala.

i am randoming here. i like christina grimmie. ;D her covers are good. and i shall end here. cause i dont want to random too much. haha.

lalalalalala. im so bored. :O

bass or baritone?
due to random searching on wiki, i somehow ended up at the vocal classification thingy. :O i think that i'm a bass. at the very most a baritone. :O but i dont sound low to myself. but then again, what do i actually know about this. :O as far as i know, my pitching is terrible. haha.

orientation
meeting today was kind of fail. it was just fail. oh well. at least i got to eat my chicken after that. :D busy busy busy, theres another meeting tomorrow!

this
song makes me happy. :D its in my head~

i have spent today doing pointless and useless stuff! woohoo. im almost done reading my half-blood prince. :O this is a short post!

my 51th post! :O somehow it seems like really little. ;O

im really having no topics to talk about. D:

sigh. blogs all around are dyingish.

at least, class people who blog are. :o

and im bored.

and sick.

i think i fall sick more often now too.

nothing to do.

i think this blog post is random.

i shall go read my harry potter. goodbye.

hello. i dont think i've been updating cause theres not much to update. therefore, i shall find some interesting things to update. ._.

GOOGLE
is awesome. cause google says justin bieber is female. :D this can be seen when you google top 50 women. #7 is justin bieber. :D but its true though. google is more used than anything else. i mean, you dont hear people, "lets yahoo it", or "lets bing it". ._. its always "lets google it". suddenly i wonder if lets is actually a word. :O oh well. proves google is awesome. :D

IPHONE
is charging now. i charge it everyday. :D most probably because i deplete battery insanely fast due to my internet spammage. peixuan, i want the apps. D: BRING YOUR LAPTOP TO BOWLING TOMORROW! LOL! :D wheee. i just read finish the deathly hallows on my iphone. stayed up till 11 to read finish. :O i shall go backwards. i shall find a half-blood prince one to read. :D maybe after i charge my iphone to full batt. ._.

QIANRENYAN
thousand people smoke. :D thousand people drown also can. :D just pronounce the "yan" differently. woohoo. lovely. from 11am - 11pm. WOOPEE. and i miss a awesome dinner with my mothers company. cause of this. 12 hours worth of stuff. i shall console myself that this will whack a few solid hours of cip into my cca. ._.

DUNKIN DONUTS
i like. i have spent approx $6 on donuts and $5.20 on popiah in the past 3 days. ._. and its not exactly my main meal. so, i have been overspending insanely. haha. D:

HIGH MAINTAINENCE BABY
apparently my mother says i am. everytime also take money. heh heh. keep going out. :O they should stop comparing now to last time where a bowl of plain noodles was 10 cents. i also just realize, theres no cents sign on the keyboard. :O

SLB
is a place for good fun and love. :D

AND THE SINGAPORE-MALAYSIA CAMP IS CANCELLED. WOOHOO. :D lalala. im bored. i dont know what to eat for breakfast. D: theres nothing much to eat. i think i'll go cook maggee mee. :O

well. thats all for today. random topics, but i dont think their very interesting. :O

hello! updating a little early today, cause im just that bored.

subject combi
i shall not talk about this, cause its boring. in case anyone wants to know, im a 1BE, appealing for a 2pB.

horoscope
PISCES - The Partner for Life
Caring and kind. Smart. Likes to be the center of attention. Very organized. High appeal to opposite sex. Likes to have the last word. Good to find, but hard to keep. Passionate, wonderful lovers. Fun to be around. Too trusting at times and gets hurt easily. VERY caring. They always try to do the right thing and sometimes gets the short end of the stick. They sometimes get used by others and get hurt because of their trusting. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good sense of humor!!! Thoughtful. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. Good friend to other but needs to be choosy on who they allow their friends to be.
i likey. i realize most horoscopes are accurate (for me anyway) except for those hilarious ones that are completely off. :O and most say creative/dreamy or what. so based on my horoscope, TREASURE ME! LOL! :D

gay

i agree. ._. why is gay a description of random stuff that you dont like? though. the ice cream part was just hilarious. (:

love language

and this is a really touching video. (:

cookie dozer
is addictive. :O i think i spent hours on it today. :D cause im just that bored. lalala. hmm. i shall go be bored and surf youtube. :D

i like mayonaise. :D

48th i think. back after a few days. haha.

class chalet was awesomest. but it felt like it passed so fast. probably because i missed the start. :O spammed food, but didnt manage to finish everything. ): bbqs are irritating to plan, either too much or too little food. oh well. random games and talks to keep memories of. and some discoveration that my heart sometimes speeds up when i think of someone. :o or its just that my heart beats really fast all the time. ._. oh well. still awesome. i wont forget the night. i only slept an hour at 6am. :O other than that, didnt really sleep. just now at qiannong's house, drifted abit, but never really fell asleep. so i've been running on like, 1 hour of sleep. :O but surprising i dont feel tired. which proves that i can do things when i feel like it. HAH. i just like to sleep early. its a good habit. (: i realize this paragraph is messy. oh well. :D

i want more chalets. i want to stay overnight with friends. :D fun, joy and laughter. and people telling us to keep quiet. LOL. oh well. i dont really feel like updating now. not in a very updatish mood.

hey you, yes you. smile, cause you're just that much nicer when you do. (:

47! hi my darlings. sorry i didnt update recently. saturday cause i was out and about, and sunday is today! :D

I GOT MY IPHONE 4! :D
i am happy. cause i likey. $500 for a phone. and my mother doesnt allow me to buy $0.99 apps. cause she dont want me to play games. LOL~ oh well. surfing the net on the go is good too. i have discovered something, that youtube outside is kind of lousy. cause although its HD, it turns out all squiggly. i think its cause i never connect wifi, just run on 3G. but, loads SLOWLY. haha. however, downloading videos gives good quality. depending on quality of video in the first place of course. haha. :D

lalala. CLASS CHALET IS TOMORROW. luck fire luck shall commence. heh heh. should be fun. rehearsal, you suck. you should just die and disappear from this earth. and never come back. FOREVER! :D qian ren yan. go away! ): why you must be on my class chalet day. D: at least im staying overnight! hope i dont miss the fun bits. :D

i have discovered. my blogskin is not user friendly on iphone. for some reason, the scroll bar disappears, so you cant see below what is seen. and if your not careful, you'll push the text to the side and the WHOLE thing disappears. which is damn fail. maybe i should get a new blogskin, for those smartphone people. :D

i think i'm the only one in class with a iphone 4. :O oh well. iphones bluetooth is redundant. HAHA. and i shall say this, im not rich. im more fortunate than most, and i know that. but im not rich. rich in our world refers to people who drive around in fancy sport cars yakking non stop into shiny pristine phones studded with diamonds and what not and live in huge mansions that could house a hundred people. and throw a party for thousands. ._.

hello. this shall be a message to everybody out there.

you are beautiful no matter what people say.
be proud of yourself and keep holding on.
cause it will get better, no matter what.
even when it seems like everything is going wrong.
it will get better.
so believe in yourself, and dont EVER let someone else tell you otherwise.
even when you lose faith in yourself, even when you dont believe anything else.
know that someone out there cares about you,
even when it seems like nobody cares.
your life is worth living.
cause you are wonderful.
and dont ever forget that.

if you ever need a shoulder to lean on, somebody to talk to, or just someone to listen to you. tell me.

45th post! :D

i ish looking forward to mah iphone on sat. :D hopefully. ._. i has downloaded 87 songs! to put into iphone. :D i think more than half is like, kpop. ._. i shall. download more songs over the next few days! :D hopefully will have more songs. but i dont really know what else to put in~ lalalalala. i want my iphone! :D i have decided to legally buy all the games. HAHA. phone bill, explode! :D

i am looking forward to class chalet. :D it is tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow. :D monday! but i have rehearsal from 2-7. so if i include travelling time, i wont be at the chalet from 1-8. ._.i think. WHICH IS DUMB LAH. i feel like. playing luck fire luck. which is a game i got from hello baby. :O i think its DAMN FUNNY. and fun. :D i shall not explain the game. just that well. i'll buy my own stuff. if nobody plays, i'll wait till someone falls asleep then put in your mouth. :D lets just say it'll be fun. :D but i think will have people play. haha. lalalala. i think after i go back to the chalet i'll bathe. ._. then i'll hog the toilet. LOL. then people, need pee, you can go pee in the bushes. :D

i am bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. tomorrow has rehearsal. i think it'll be boring. AND WHY ARE THE SEC 4's FOR NEXT YEAR STEPPING DOWN IN FEB. OMG. ITS LIKE, SUPER EARLY! :O i wonder if i'll get some weird position in my cca. ._. i think i will. oh well~

yesterday was fun. :O i forgot how fun cycling is. cycling is goooood. and the playground was interesting. :D yep yep. hummeh hummeh. lalalalala. i'm missing so much of the class chalet. D: but yesterday was fun. yoghurt was sour. must eat with other stuff, then wont sour. ._. i need stories to read. ._. lalala.

i've been having a huge variety of dreams. such as, me killing alot of people. me looking completely different and i was singing on a stage. :O me with someone. me being someone else. and some other weird stuff.

i think korea bands seem more fun. their like, always in a group. and they all seem really close. whereas western singers are mostly solo. which i think is kind of sad and lonely. sometimes i wonder what it would be like to be born somewhere else! :O i think korea would be interesting. japan too. :O i like korea's system. (:

our love should go on, i still love you

lalala. 44th post.

i have discovered
that understanding something and feeling about it is completely different. like how you could understand something, but you still feel about it, even when you know its irrational and cant be helped. dont you think life would be easier if we were amoebas? ._.

i likey
kpop. recently i started listening to A LOT of kpop. especially from shinee. hmm. shinee is good. i like their songs. kpop is nice. even though i cant understand. i think the beats are nice. lalalalala. when i get my iphone i shall download tons of songs. (:
WHEN I GET MY IPHONE! ._.

i want
my iphone now. immediately. hmph. was supposed to get it 2 weeks ago. then push off and push off. i want it by this weekend. D: then i can use to listen songs during class chalet. my current phone hard to download songs. ._. so i want a iphone. though i think it would be EASIER. ._. think. bleh. i also want a new dog. a big one. a big fluffy, friendly one. then the house wouldn't be so quiet and lonely anymore. sigh.

i also realize
when im in a bad mood, i look especially in a good mood. which is weird. sometimes i show it, but its not very common. most of the times, i end up looking like i'm on a high. when im actually in a terrible mood. i bottle it too much i guess. which proves my point that i do not express myself easily. so if i tell you i like you or i hate you, i would probably mean it. um. if im not joking. then again, how would you know? :O bad moods are becoming more common. bad mood meaning either kind of irritated ish or depressed. mostly both at the same time. i didn't use to feel like that. teenage blues? maybe. ._.

i also likey
sleep. i understand why my sister slept so much when she was my age last time. sleep feels good. though i still keep a 8 hour sleeping cycle. at least! ._. i've been sleeping later and waking later recently. ._. late-ish as in 10ish. later as in, 7 ish. ._. which is not really a big diff, haha. but i feel like sleeping more in the day though. which is super rare for me. in the past. now i always feel like sleeping. ._. or it could be because im sickish recently. i dont think i actually recovered from the class dinner time. ._. more like, it fades and come back. on and off. grandparents are asking me to go see doctor, but yeah. ._.

ohwell. her whisper is the lucifer. :D in a better mood. saw the person i like today. cause be partly a reason. :D but then again, i mood swing much. :D

and 43 has arrived. sigh. im still in a sad mood. sigh. no idea why. and if you somehow manage to irritate me, i will fig you.

i can only get my iphone earliest next week. ): cause the line is bundle, then under my aunt, who registered under my grandpa, so if i cancle my line and make a new line under my mother then some thingy will be gone. then need check with the m1 people, and i can only buy with my parents on weekend. so next weekend. and after next weekend is class chalet. whoopee. i realize how through typing moods are easily concealed. sarcasm isnt very obvious too. especially the subtle ones.

i dont want to be me. i dont like me and i dont like my life. i want to be somebody else. or grow older. older as in 18 ish or 20ish. then i'll be free-er. i wanna be somebody else. gah.

and i still wonder what happens to rockstars. they cant release albums till they're 50 or something. like, how long will a group last? after that, what do they do? entertainment? acting? you realize how after a few years, a group tends to die off. oh well. i probably wont find out.

and i realize singapore, as an artist producer, doesnt really work. if we want to get famous, we probably have to go far far away. i wonder how singaporean english singers appear. where do they go? if they sing chinese, they can go to taiwan. where do the english ones go? somehow, i think chinese/korean/japan seem more famous. their lives seem more. just more. i think the language sounds better than english. maybe i'll learn korean or japanese when i go older and migrate and just disappear.

cause life doesnt go the way you want.

42nd post. i've been in a really bad mood recently. consider yourself warned. i have also decided i dont like this world. this post shall be about stuff that is. something.

i seriously dont get why people are so uptight over celebs getting into relationships and start hating on them. for example, jonghyun and that random girl whose name i dont really know. i seriously dont get it. jonghyun is a normal person too. albeit a famous one. so he should have his own chance at romance. and YOU will definitely not even get to talk to him, let alone get into a relationship. so why do people start hating the person even when you've been saying you support him oh-so-much. hypocrites and liars that just jump onto the bandwagon when the going is good. assholes. SO PEOPLE WHO CLAIM YOU SUPPORT YOUR IDOLS, AND YOU SUDDENLY START HATING CAUSE OF SOME DUMB SCANDAL OR REASON, YOUR A HYPOCRITE AND AN ASSHOLE. that is all. sorry if this has offended you.

i dont like how life shows you the sweeter parts of life, that you realize you cant even taste it, or at most catch another glimpse. you realize, sometimes, no matter how people say to dream big, nothing is impossible. there are things that you simply cannot do. for example, although i kind of really want to be a singer, i highly doubt i'll make it, cause one, i think im ugly. and two, my voice isnt spectacular. in fact, its kind of common. at least. i think it is. so i would most probably not make it. and i dont really want to be anything else. but you see, dreaming big doesnt work all the time. and then. it just doesnt work. so there.

i also wonder, after a rockstar is going out of the famous limelight, what happens to them? do they go back to normal lives? do they just carry on, with enough money to last them a lifetime? for example, when will shinee stop being famous? you cant expect them to be famous till they're 50 or something. they'll probably just fade away after a few years. then what? what will they do? will they just break apart and go their seperate ways? will they be the ones you see in the street, walking around? will the somebody become a nobody again? i wonder.

sigh. cause the forbidden is always the most tempting.

cause life isnt a party,
and forever doesnt last.
never-ending doesnt exist,
and everything goes fast.

cause time doesnt wait,
and life never stops.
when the trees finally die,
and all the leaves drop.

cause treasured memories
spin and disappear.
when everything is gone,
even those you hold dear.

you'll hold regret,
and start to cry.
the world would end,
and no birds would fly.

and when the last turns to dust.
and nothing is left but sand.
there wouldn't be anyone left to cry.
and so it would end.
copyright wenzhi

its my 40th post! and i just noticed that i have a follower! :O

angler fishies
are sad. especially male ones. and due to me commenting that on that, my friends are interested in why. namely, xianghao and peixuan and qixuan. HERE is a link. click on it and read it, then you'll know why. :D

rocky horror show
thanks for inviting me sherry, but expensive tickets. almost $70! :O but thinking of it, can i actually watch? no age limit? :O surprise surprise. rocky horror seems to have so much maturity in it. have to ask mummy if she lets me go, translation, can i have moneh? :D

blogskins
i feel like changing it! but i cant really find one that i like. and its the most hated thing for me. bleh. so we shall see. i wanna change~ but none that i like~

i
shall now go tidy up the minutes i took just now. ._. goodnight.

heyhellohi. this is already the 39th post. :D

i have decided
HOLIDAYS ARE BORING. there is absolutely nothing to do. and im going to die of boredom before school starts again. D:
i however, have weird stuff appearing during my holiday schedule. such as 3 camps. also known as
-DESEB camp (is it actually still on? cause theres only like 11 more days? and it wasnt actually comfirmed. either that or nobody told me. ._. ) 11-12 nov
-weird thingy camp i got nominated by mr lui by. :O 22-26 nov.
-intensive 6-9 dec i think.
:O one of the more camp intensive holidays. usually only have 1 or 2. :O

204 is awesome
and apparantly other classes are jealous of us. cause we're that awesome and we have so many outings and we are oh-so-bonded. I LAUGH AT YOU! HAHAHAHAHA. no im not so mean. (: or am i?:D tomorrow have another one, class chalet in about 14 more days, more getting planned. :D

grandmama
does not believe that i managed to fill more than half the dustin with my tissue paper. :D due to my not-so-awesome runny nose. i realize if i fall sick, i fall really sick and STAY sick for a few days. the few days one is most likely runny nose + cough + sore throat. guh. havent felt like that in forever. khasim thinks my voice sounds funny. in what way though? i shall ask. i think it sounds deeper. if someones tell me its me breaking voice, i will slap your ass. :D i dont think breaking voice involves a sore throat and insane coughing. huhuhu.

are fishballs
actually made of fish? does it mean people mush fishies up and roll them up so we can eat fishballs? ._. WHAT ABOUT THE BONES. OMG. OR THE EYE BALLS. OMG. SO GROSS. i do not like fish eyeballs. which is why i dont like to eat fish that is not already cut up. i do not like to see their fishy faces staringat me and screaming silently. it is disturbing.

katy perry
is my new artiste fad. :D i feel like buying teenage dream. cause apparantly if you open it, you can smell COTTON CANDY! OMG. so cool. :D and i like her awesome songs. like fireworks, cause its inspirational and supports gays. like peacock cause its just awesome. and circle the drain cause its also awesome. here are awesome lyrics.
-you fall asleep during foreplay, cause the pills you take are more your forte
-dont be a shy kinda guy, i bet its beautiful/come on baby let me see what you're hiding underneath
-lets go all the way tonight, no regrets
-your original, cannot be replaced
i like her new songs. cause they so goood. :D

i think i had more topics
but i just cant remember them right now. oh yeah. i am happy that i am seeing more gay supportive videos now. :D and some awesome videos feature gay people. :D

and i shall stop here. actually im thinking of multiple posts in a day, but we'll see. :O

my first double post in a day! :O

iphone
dumb dumb peixuan locked mah iphone for a total of 81 minutes yesterday. LOSER. go away. D:
most people use their iphones to play games, i use mine to surf the net. :D woohoo.

song are fun
THIS is awesome. :D

i have suddenly run out of topics. this post seems to be redundant. ._. oh well. "POST!":D

60th post! :D

lucifer
is hard to dance. half an hour and i cant get the first 20 seconds right. too fast! D: i think i need step by step. haha. or maybe im just not cut out to be a dancer. :P i shall give up this project for now. i will continue sometime. in the far future. HAHA. :D

bored
theres nothing to do. nothing to do. i think i'll go write my fanfic. chapter 2! :O woohoo. should occupy me for an hour or so. :D

internet connection
in my room is not as fast as in my living room. ): bleh. but i dont feel like going down. cause the sun is too bright. :D

bleh bleh bleh. this is a boring post. maybe i'll post again later.

heyhellohi!

dancing
i shall learn how to dance lucifer! probably not a good song to start learning how to dance with, as its oh-so-fast. ._. i shall at least try to get the first 1 minuteish of the video tomorrow. haha. :D i shall spend tomorrow looking at the mirrored version and learning how to dance. :D gah. even looking at a slow version, its so hard to catch. so hard to remember since when you try to dance to the actual song, its sooo much faster. haha. oh well. shall see how tomorrow. :D qixuan tried to teach me, but i couldnt grasp it, and we only spent a minute or two on it. after that we tried to remember down. can remember, but i think we forgot a small part of a step. cause it seems weird. oh well. :D

NEX
is kind of huge. but walkways are not very big. smaller than vivo. but not bad overall. just, the layout of the place is kind of confusing. and not all the shops are open. :O

saw
kuanyung and wyekit. :D nice to see them after such a long time. not that close of a friend with them though. thinking back, i wasnt actually close to alot of people during primary school. people i am close to in secondary school, TREASURE ME. :D ok, that was thick-skinned. haha. i dont care.

i am bored. therefore i shall spend tomorrow dancing. if something doesnt suddenly crop up. haha. lalala. i should seriously stop walking in the rain. i think i will fall sick again. then i'll sicken and die. oh well. i am in a good mood. i like shark in the water. oh well. :D GOODNIGHT PEOPLE!

banananananana. today was boring. my hair got cut off. :O

boredom
can make people do many things. i read finish a 251 page book in a few hours. then got bored, made a formspring, and felt like reading another book. started the first chapter, then got bored again. then i wrote a random fanfic and posted it up somewhere. if you find it, and discover what it is, you probably wont know its me. cause it doesnt have my name at all! HAHAHA. then i started singing random songs. i cant hit the notes anymore! :O sad, sad.

sing
so i shall sing with huixin and qiannong, can we decide what song to sing, so can practice? LOL. btw, who has the thingies to record anyway. ._. oh well. would help to pass time anyway.

notes
i have discovered this is useful for lyrics use. i have also discovered a faster way rather than to type one word by one word into iphone. ): but i got too bored of getting lyrics, so i ended up with only 4 song lyrics. lalala. :O

formspring
if you have time, go ask me stuff. i need things to pass my time.

my number
has changed, in case you havent realized. i shall not disclose my new number here, later i get stalked by people. if you want my new number, you can message my old phone, but i dont check often. so you can wait. :D

lalallalal.my hair is short now. bleh. wanted to grow it long, but then again, mother was did not allow me to. she also did not allow me to dye my hair. she did however, ask me if i wanted to change school. ._.

BABY THERES A SHARK IN THE WATER
THERES SOMETHING UNDERNEATH MY BED
why would a shark be under your bed? ._.

ohwell. interesting stuff. :D

HELLO! random fact spammage. :O

1 in 12 people have sex in their sleep. It's called "sexsomnia".
:O IT IS AN ACTUALLY DISEASE! so people have sex in their sleep. it includes masturbation, sex, fondling etc etc. and apparantly it can be used as a defence in a rape case! cause sometimes its really unintentional. apparantly this is a kind of sleepworking. quite hilarious i think. :D

this song is quite lol.
THIS is a mashup of tiktok and california girls :O amusing.

this person tricks people into drinking his semen
THIS is one evil dude. so many upskirts also. dont learn from him. LOL. AND HE WAS A CIVILIAN OFFICER. OH MY! :O quite hilarious. me and my mom were laughing at him.

this vid
THIS is a weird advertisement. and somewhat disturbing. ._.

lala
missed openhouse cause im sick. ): coughing fits make me feel like puking. and for some reason, i taste bitter. as in, my fingers all that. dont ask me why i was licking myself.

BAWHDOFASDFOASDFAASD
ok. nothing else to add. too lazy to add actually. i shall go shower. heh heh. goodday.

56th post.

typing style
someone has said that my typing style changes when im angry or depressed. hmm. ._. apparantly when im angry i type faster, and tend to have more typos and there will be complete punctuation. for some weird reason. and it would be in complete sentences. either that or if im in a really bad mood i'll just type in really short, clipped sentences. ._. oh well. weird habits. I AM A PERSON OF WEIRD HABITS

toothless
i think i'll turn up with no teeth. either that or my braces are pushing my teeth around. heh heh. i dont like it when i just change my braces. doesnt feel nice.

sick
sick sick sick. i think im falling sick sick sick sick sick. coughing like mad the whole day. runny nose, almost vomited a few times. so i have no idea if i can still go for open house tomorrow. but how to find sub at this kind of time. if i need one. i wonder if i can just grab a person that's the morning one. oh well. im going to end up coughing myself to death. woohoo.

topics
topics topics. i have no topics. give me a topic, any topic. and no, i'm not going to repeat gay rights. :O i'll pick topics. IF YOU ACTUALLY GIVE ME TOPICS! :O

christina grimmie
rocks. (: though i think if she had better audio/video equiptment she'd be awesome. :D been following her for quite awhile.

im pretty sure my voice is breaking. mmhmm. HAH PEOPLE WHO THOUGHT I BROKE MY VOICE ALREADY! YOU WERE WRONG. HAHAHAHAHA. which would mean my voice will end up even lower than this. ._. oh well.

oh. my appeal failed. due to maths being terrible. and i had a very interesting discussion with my mother. on xinmin. and considered just changing schools. cause if i just change schools, i could most probably enter into a triple science. so yeah. had thoughts on that. haha. i think some of my primary school friends are changing schools because of this also. i actually had a discussion with my sisters and mother about this. which is rare. hmm. ._. oh well. we also had thoughts of xinmin that would probably not be wise to put here, due to the fact i might be found out and accused of slander etc etc. ._.

my mom was awesome though. i think it was mr lim who called her. so she got angry and she said :"so basically your just telling me that i cant do anything about it." cause they say also cannot change already blah blah blah. my mom is awesome. she supports me. (: i think the changing school thing is interesting though. thinking about it but yeah. you know.

oh well. i has new view of xinmin now! :D

blah blah blah. i think this is my 54th post. ._.

rain
i was walking home today and i probably should have at least tried to avoid the rain. ._. however, being the person that i am, chose to slowly walk through the rain, seeking no shelter whatsoever and purposely walking in the rain. i even had the time to look at the rain clouds. i think some other people thought i was crazy. oh well. i like the rain. however, i dont think it was the best idea, and i think i'm going to fall sick again. oh well, too late to change anything.

PSLE results
are out! apparantly the highest score this year is 278. i think. i wonder how many of my primary school people are going to come to xinmin. i doubt many of them will. i think mostly will go zhonghua etc etc. hmm. ._.

dental
my braces are now red. woohoo. cause i randomly picked a colour, and it ended up red. like bloody red. woohoo.

earpieces
i think i should stop twirling them. i kept twirling and twisting and bending my old LG ones and they ended up dead. ._. i think if i keep doing this, my apple ones are going to die too. ._. that would not be very good. but i cant help myself. subconscious bad habit! psh!

gradnight photos
are fun to look at. cause i get to see my seniors if they were to dress glamly. :O quite interesting. heh heh. btw sherry, as you read this blog, i shall compliment your dress. nice dress. :D ok. that was so random. haha.

lalala. cant really think of more topics. im still reading random books on my iphone. i think my iphone is not so much for games, but more to satisfy my love of reading. :D though searching for pdf files of books online is quite troublesome. ._. and some of them have weird typos and format. lol.

fanfic
is interesting. if i end up bored enough, i think i'll write my own one. somehow i think fanfics are mostly written by girls. hmmm. ._. oh well. i shall break the stereotypes. thank you very much.
the end. (:

REGRETS
regrets are so common, yet unavoidable. well. most of the time anyway. in retrospect, actually quite avoidable, just that we as people are too stupid. suddenly i feel damn nostalgic. now, i regret leaving YCSOG. not that anyone from YCSOG reads my blog. or anyone out there that actually knows about YCSOG. haha. go find out yourself, if your really that bored. i look back, and i miss the time i spent together with those guys. now, i see little bits of info and pictures of them now, with new members, new people, old people, new memories. and i'm not there with them, like the past. and then now i wonder, what would it be like if i never left? im pretty sure i would have rised through the ranks, at least for a certain point. but then again, who knows. anyway, its not like i can go waltzing back after so long. i miss them. sigh. but then again, i dont think they miss me, i dont think they even think of me, unless they actually see me, which i hardly do. sigh. looking through old photos of overseas trips together. camps, australia, japan, performances. out of my original batch of 10+, theres only 2 left. and i regret leaving them alone. guess i never really put in the effort. i also just realized, i still have access to YCSOG forums. haha.. guess regretting it doesnt make a difference. even if i wanted to rejoin, i dont think i will be allowed to. so thats that.

linked to this topic, think about who you're talking to before you say something that could hurt that person. it might not be offensive to other people, but it could cut the person deeply if you say something without thinking. so think it through and dont regret it.

people, make the right decision, no matter how hard. dont give it only to regret it later.

hello lovely ones.

class 204
is random. and loved. and the class blog was randomly updated. sorry, this just randomly popped into my head. :O

behkhasim
has amused me the whole day. :D orientation meeting we keep saying the same thing at the same time, then other people laughing at us. :O after that we had a random chitchat with raymond about stuff then went to buy food back, and bought food for liya too, though it got cold cause she only ate it like, 2 hours later. D: anyway, me and khasim were randomly watching one piece and i never actually watched it, so suddenly skipping to episode 450+ was quite lol. evelyn was spamming some of my iphone games to pass time. khasim amused me with this wonderful sentence "me no kuku" in response to my "you kuku". when he said it, me and evelyn looked at each other then laughed like hell, and liya was laughing at the back. khasim was like, stunned, then he thought about what he said for awhile, then he was like WTH. then he just ignore us and continue watching one piece. :D then after that, evelyn was like "ME NOT KUKU" at khasim's face and he quickly replied "我给你一粒啊!" which translated would mean, i give you one ball. so at this point, me and evelyn were laughing again. then he angry again, just ignore us. SO DAMN FUNNY. YOU HAVE BRIGHTENED MY DAY! :D

lucifer
in keeping up with my recent kpop fad, i mostly listen to kpop songs on my phone. and the most played song is lucifer, with 24 plays. :O compared to the rest, its alot, cause the rest is like, around 10 or less than that. :O so yay for shinee. haha. you realize you mostly see fangirls, you dont really see fanboys. hmmm. :O

tuition
in a long time, i will have tuition again. tomorrow! which is oh-so-awesome since i haven't dont my homework. D: lalala.

i am randoming here. i like christina grimmie. ;D her covers are good. and i shall end here. cause i dont want to random too much. haha.

lalalalalala. im so bored. :O

bass or baritone?
due to random searching on wiki, i somehow ended up at the vocal classification thingy. :O i think that i'm a bass. at the very most a baritone. :O but i dont sound low to myself. but then again, what do i actually know about this. :O as far as i know, my pitching is terrible. haha.

orientation
meeting today was kind of fail. it was just fail. oh well. at least i got to eat my chicken after that. :D busy busy busy, theres another meeting tomorrow!

this
song makes me happy. :D its in my head~

i have spent today doing pointless and useless stuff! woohoo. im almost done reading my half-blood prince. :O this is a short post!

my 51th post! :O somehow it seems like really little. ;O

im really having no topics to talk about. D:

sigh. blogs all around are dyingish.

at least, class people who blog are. :o

and im bored.

and sick.

i think i fall sick more often now too.

nothing to do.

i think this blog post is random.

i shall go read my harry potter. goodbye.

hello. i dont think i've been updating cause theres not much to update. therefore, i shall find some interesting things to update. ._.

GOOGLE
is awesome. cause google says justin bieber is female. :D this can be seen when you google top 50 women. #7 is justin bieber. :D but its true though. google is more used than anything else. i mean, you dont hear people, "lets yahoo it", or "lets bing it". ._. its always "lets google it". suddenly i wonder if lets is actually a word. :O oh well. proves google is awesome. :D

IPHONE
is charging now. i charge it everyday. :D most probably because i deplete battery insanely fast due to my internet spammage. peixuan, i want the apps. D: BRING YOUR LAPTOP TO BOWLING TOMORROW! LOL! :D wheee. i just read finish the deathly hallows on my iphone. stayed up till 11 to read finish. :O i shall go backwards. i shall find a half-blood prince one to read. :D maybe after i charge my iphone to full batt. ._.

QIANRENYAN
thousand people smoke. :D thousand people drown also can. :D just pronounce the "yan" differently. woohoo. lovely. from 11am - 11pm. WOOPEE. and i miss a awesome dinner with my mothers company. cause of this. 12 hours worth of stuff. i shall console myself that this will whack a few solid hours of cip into my cca. ._.

DUNKIN DONUTS
i like. i have spent approx $6 on donuts and $5.20 on popiah in the past 3 days. ._. and its not exactly my main meal. so, i have been overspending insanely. haha. D:

HIGH MAINTAINENCE BABY
apparently my mother says i am. everytime also take money. heh heh. keep going out. :O they should stop comparing now to last time where a bowl of plain noodles was 10 cents. i also just realize, theres no cents sign on the keyboard. :O

SLB
is a place for good fun and love. :D

AND THE SINGAPORE-MALAYSIA CAMP IS CANCELLED. WOOHOO. :D lalala. im bored. i dont know what to eat for breakfast. D: theres nothing much to eat. i think i'll go cook maggee mee. :O

well. thats all for today. random topics, but i dont think their very interesting. :O

hello! updating a little early today, cause im just that bored.

subject combi
i shall not talk about this, cause its boring. in case anyone wants to know, im a 1BE, appealing for a 2pB.

horoscope
PISCES - The Partner for Life
Caring and kind. Smart. Likes to be the center of attention. Very organized. High appeal to opposite sex. Likes to have the last word. Good to find, but hard to keep. Passionate, wonderful lovers. Fun to be around. Too trusting at times and gets hurt easily. VERY caring. They always try to do the right thing and sometimes gets the short end of the stick. They sometimes get used by others and get hurt because of their trusting. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good sense of humor!!! Thoughtful. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. Good friend to other but needs to be choosy on who they allow their friends to be.
i likey. i realize most horoscopes are accurate (for me anyway) except for those hilarious ones that are completely off. :O and most say creative/dreamy or what. so based on my horoscope, TREASURE ME! LOL! :D

gay

i agree. ._. why is gay a description of random stuff that you dont like? though. the ice cream part was just hilarious. (:

love language

and this is a really touching video. (:

cookie dozer
is addictive. :O i think i spent hours on it today. :D cause im just that bored. lalala. hmm. i shall go be bored and surf youtube. :D

i like mayonaise. :D

48th i think. back after a few days. haha.

class chalet was awesomest. but it felt like it passed so fast. probably because i missed the start. :O spammed food, but didnt manage to finish everything. ): bbqs are irritating to plan, either too much or too little food. oh well. random games and talks to keep memories of. and some discoveration that my heart sometimes speeds up when i think of someone. :o or its just that my heart beats really fast all the time. ._. oh well. still awesome. i wont forget the night. i only slept an hour at 6am. :O other than that, didnt really sleep. just now at qiannong's house, drifted abit, but never really fell asleep. so i've been running on like, 1 hour of sleep. :O but surprising i dont feel tired. which proves that i can do things when i feel like it. HAH. i just like to sleep early. its a good habit. (: i realize this paragraph is messy. oh well. :D

i want more chalets. i want to stay overnight with friends. :D fun, joy and laughter. and people telling us to keep quiet. LOL. oh well. i dont really feel like updating now. not in a very updatish mood.

hey you, yes you. smile, cause you're just that much nicer when you do. (:

47! hi my darlings. sorry i didnt update recently. saturday cause i was out and about, and sunday is today! :D

I GOT MY IPHONE 4! :D
i am happy. cause i likey. $500 for a phone. and my mother doesnt allow me to buy $0.99 apps. cause she dont want me to play games. LOL~ oh well. surfing the net on the go is good too. i have discovered something, that youtube outside is kind of lousy. cause although its HD, it turns out all squiggly. i think its cause i never connect wifi, just run on 3G. but, loads SLOWLY. haha. however, downloading videos gives good quality. depending on quality of video in the first place of course. haha. :D

lalala. CLASS CHALET IS TOMORROW. luck fire luck shall commence. heh heh. should be fun. rehearsal, you suck. you should just die and disappear from this earth. and never come back. FOREVER! :D qian ren yan. go away! ): why you must be on my class chalet day. D: at least im staying overnight! hope i dont miss the fun bits. :D

i have discovered. my blogskin is not user friendly on iphone. for some reason, the scroll bar disappears, so you cant see below what is seen. and if your not careful, you'll push the text to the side and the WHOLE thing disappears. which is damn fail. maybe i should get a new blogskin, for those smartphone people. :D

i think i'm the only one in class with a iphone 4. :O oh well. iphones bluetooth is redundant. HAHA. and i shall say this, im not rich. im more fortunate than most, and i know that. but im not rich. rich in our world refers to people who drive around in fancy sport cars yakking non stop into shiny pristine phones studded with diamonds and what not and live in huge mansions that could house a hundred people. and throw a party for thousands. ._.

hello. this shall be a message to everybody out there.

you are beautiful no matter what people say.
be proud of yourself and keep holding on.
cause it will get better, no matter what.
even when it seems like everything is going wrong.
it will get better.
so believe in yourself, and dont EVER let someone else tell you otherwise.
even when you lose faith in yourself, even when you dont believe anything else.
know that someone out there cares about you,
even when it seems like nobody cares.
your life is worth living.
cause you are wonderful.
and dont ever forget that.

if you ever need a shoulder to lean on, somebody to talk to, or just someone to listen to you. tell me.

45th post! :D

i ish looking forward to mah iphone on sat. :D hopefully. ._. i has downloaded 87 songs! to put into iphone. :D i think more than half is like, kpop. ._. i shall. download more songs over the next few days! :D hopefully will have more songs. but i dont really know what else to put in~ lalalalala. i want my iphone! :D i have decided to legally buy all the games. HAHA. phone bill, explode! :D

i am looking forward to class chalet. :D it is tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow. :D monday! but i have rehearsal from 2-7. so if i include travelling time, i wont be at the chalet from 1-8. ._.i think. WHICH IS DUMB LAH. i feel like. playing luck fire luck. which is a game i got from hello baby. :O i think its DAMN FUNNY. and fun. :D i shall not explain the game. just that well. i'll buy my own stuff. if nobody plays, i'll wait till someone falls asleep then put in your mouth. :D lets just say it'll be fun. :D but i think will have people play. haha. lalalala. i think after i go back to the chalet i'll bathe. ._. then i'll hog the toilet. LOL. then people, need pee, you can go pee in the bushes. :D

i am bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. tomorrow has rehearsal. i think it'll be boring. AND WHY ARE THE SEC 4's FOR NEXT YEAR STEPPING DOWN IN FEB. OMG. ITS LIKE, SUPER EARLY! :O i wonder if i'll get some weird position in my cca. ._. i think i will. oh well~

yesterday was fun. :O i forgot how fun cycling is. cycling is goooood. and the playground was interesting. :D yep yep. hummeh hummeh. lalalalala. i'm missing so much of the class chalet. D: but yesterday was fun. yoghurt was sour. must eat with other stuff, then wont sour. ._. i need stories to read. ._. lalala.

i've been having a huge variety of dreams. such as, me killing alot of people. me looking completely different and i was singing on a stage. :O me with someone. me being someone else. and some other weird stuff.

i think korea bands seem more fun. their like, always in a group. and they all seem really close. whereas western singers are mostly solo. which i think is kind of sad and lonely. sometimes i wonder what it would be like to be born somewhere else! :O i think korea would be interesting. japan too. :O i like korea's system. (:

our love should go on, i still love you

lalala. 44th post.

i have discovered
that understanding something and feeling about it is completely different. like how you could understand something, but you still feel about it, even when you know its irrational and cant be helped. dont you think life would be easier if we were amoebas? ._.

i likey
kpop. recently i started listening to A LOT of kpop. especially from shinee. hmm. shinee is good. i like their songs. kpop is nice. even though i cant understand. i think the beats are nice. lalalalala. when i get my iphone i shall download tons of songs. (:
WHEN I GET MY IPHONE! ._.

i want
my iphone now. immediately. hmph. was supposed to get it 2 weeks ago. then push off and push off. i want it by this weekend. D: then i can use to listen songs during class chalet. my current phone hard to download songs. ._. so i want a iphone. though i think it would be EASIER. ._. think. bleh. i also want a new dog. a big one. a big fluffy, friendly one. then the house wouldn't be so quiet and lonely anymore. sigh.

i also realize
when im in a bad mood, i look especially in a good mood. which is weird. sometimes i show it, but its not very common. most of the times, i end up looking like i'm on a high. when im actually in a terrible mood. i bottle it too much i guess. which proves my point that i do not express myself easily. so if i tell you i like you or i hate you, i would probably mean it. um. if im not joking. then again, how would you know? :O bad moods are becoming more common. bad mood meaning either kind of irritated ish or depressed. mostly both at the same time. i didn't use to feel like that. teenage blues? maybe. ._.

i also likey
sleep. i understand why my sister slept so much when she was my age last time. sleep feels good. though i still keep a 8 hour sleeping cycle. at least! ._. i've been sleeping later and waking later recently. ._. late-ish as in 10ish. later as in, 7 ish. ._. which is not really a big diff, haha. but i feel like sleeping more in the day though. which is super rare for me. in the past. now i always feel like sleeping. ._. or it could be because im sickish recently. i dont think i actually recovered from the class dinner time. ._. more like, it fades and come back. on and off. grandparents are asking me to go see doctor, but yeah. ._.

ohwell. her whisper is the lucifer. :D in a better mood. saw the person i like today. cause be partly a reason. :D but then again, i mood swing much. :D

and 43 has arrived. sigh. im still in a sad mood. sigh. no idea why. and if you somehow manage to irritate me, i will fig you.

i can only get my iphone earliest next week. ): cause the line is bundle, then under my aunt, who registered under my grandpa, so if i cancle my line and make a new line under my mother then some thingy will be gone. then need check with the m1 people, and i can only buy with my parents on weekend. so next weekend. and after next weekend is class chalet. whoopee. i realize how through typing moods are easily concealed. sarcasm isnt very obvious too. especially the subtle ones.

i dont want to be me. i dont like me and i dont like my life. i want to be somebody else. or grow older. older as in 18 ish or 20ish. then i'll be free-er. i wanna be somebody else. gah.

and i still wonder what happens to rockstars. they cant release albums till they're 50 or something. like, how long will a group last? after that, what do they do? entertainment? acting? you realize how after a few years, a group tends to die off. oh well. i probably wont find out.

and i realize singapore, as an artist producer, doesnt really work. if we want to get famous, we probably have to go far far away. i wonder how singaporean english singers appear. where do they go? if they sing chinese, they can go to taiwan. where do the english ones go? somehow, i think chinese/korean/japan seem more famous. their lives seem more. just more. i think the language sounds better than english. maybe i'll learn korean or japanese when i go older and migrate and just disappear.

cause life doesnt go the way you want.

42nd post. i've been in a really bad mood recently. consider yourself warned. i have also decided i dont like this world. this post shall be about stuff that is. something.

i seriously dont get why people are so uptight over celebs getting into relationships and start hating on them. for example, jonghyun and that random girl whose name i dont really know. i seriously dont get it. jonghyun is a normal person too. albeit a famous one. so he should have his own chance at romance. and YOU will definitely not even get to talk to him, let alone get into a relationship. so why do people start hating the person even when you've been saying you support him oh-so-much. hypocrites and liars that just jump onto the bandwagon when the going is good. assholes. SO PEOPLE WHO CLAIM YOU SUPPORT YOUR IDOLS, AND YOU SUDDENLY START HATING CAUSE OF SOME DUMB SCANDAL OR REASON, YOUR A HYPOCRITE AND AN ASSHOLE. that is all. sorry if this has offended you.

i dont like how life shows you the sweeter parts of life, that you realize you cant even taste it, or at most catch another glimpse. you realize, sometimes, no matter how people say to dream big, nothing is impossible. there are things that you simply cannot do. for example, although i kind of really want to be a singer, i highly doubt i'll make it, cause one, i think im ugly. and two, my voice isnt spectacular. in fact, its kind of common. at least. i think it is. so i would most probably not make it. and i dont really want to be anything else. but you see, dreaming big doesnt work all the time. and then. it just doesnt work. so there.

i also wonder, after a rockstar is going out of the famous limelight, what happens to them? do they go back to normal lives? do they just carry on, with enough money to last them a lifetime? for example, when will shinee stop being famous? you cant expect them to be famous till they're 50 or something. they'll probably just fade away after a few years. then what? what will they do? will they just break apart and go their seperate ways? will they be the ones you see in the street, walking around? will the somebody become a nobody again? i wonder.

sigh. cause the forbidden is always the most tempting.

cause life isnt a party,
and forever doesnt last.
never-ending doesnt exist,
and everything goes fast.

cause time doesnt wait,
and life never stops.
when the trees finally die,
and all the leaves drop.

cause treasured memories
spin and disappear.
when everything is gone,
even those you hold dear.

you'll hold regret,
and start to cry.
the world would end,
and no birds would fly.

and when the last turns to dust.
and nothing is left but sand.
there wouldn't be anyone left to cry.
and so it would end.
copyright wenzhi

its my 40th post! and i just noticed that i have a follower! :O

angler fishies
are sad. especially male ones. and due to me commenting that on that, my friends are interested in why. namely, xianghao and peixuan and qixuan. HERE is a link. click on it and read it, then you'll know why. :D

rocky horror show
thanks for inviting me sherry, but expensive tickets. almost $70! :O but thinking of it, can i actually watch? no age limit? :O surprise surprise. rocky horror seems to have so much maturity in it. have to ask mummy if she lets me go, translation, can i have moneh? :D

blogskins
i feel like changing it! but i cant really find one that i like. and its the most hated thing for me. bleh. so we shall see. i wanna change~ but none that i like~

i
shall now go tidy up the minutes i took just now. ._. goodnight.

heyhellohi. this is already the 39th post. :D

i have decided
HOLIDAYS ARE BORING. there is absolutely nothing to do. and im going to die of boredom before school starts again. D:
i however, have weird stuff appearing during my holiday schedule. such as 3 camps. also known as
-DESEB camp (is it actually still on? cause theres only like 11 more days? and it wasnt actually comfirmed. either that or nobody told me. ._. ) 11-12 nov
-weird thingy camp i got nominated by mr lui by. :O 22-26 nov.
-intensive 6-9 dec i think.
:O one of the more camp intensive holidays. usually only have 1 or 2. :O

204 is awesome
and apparantly other classes are jealous of us. cause we're that awesome and we have so many outings and we are oh-so-bonded. I LAUGH AT YOU! HAHAHAHAHA. no im not so mean. (: or am i?:D tomorrow have another one, class chalet in about 14 more days, more getting planned. :D

grandmama
does not believe that i managed to fill more than half the dustin with my tissue paper. :D due to my not-so-awesome runny nose. i realize if i fall sick, i fall really sick and STAY sick for a few days. the few days one is most likely runny nose + cough + sore throat. guh. havent felt like that in forever. khasim thinks my voice sounds funny. in what way though? i shall ask. i think it sounds deeper. if someones tell me its me breaking voice, i will slap your ass. :D i dont think breaking voice involves a sore throat and insane coughing. huhuhu.

are fishballs
actually made of fish? does it mean people mush fishies up and roll them up so we can eat fishballs? ._. WHAT ABOUT THE BONES. OMG. OR THE EYE BALLS. OMG. SO GROSS. i do not like fish eyeballs. which is why i dont like to eat fish that is not already cut up. i do not like to see their fishy faces staringat me and screaming silently. it is disturbing.

katy perry
is my new artiste fad. :D i feel like buying teenage dream. cause apparantly if you open it, you can smell COTTON CANDY! OMG. so cool. :D and i like her awesome songs. like fireworks, cause its inspirational and supports gays. like peacock cause its just awesome. and circle the drain cause its also awesome. here are awesome lyrics.
-you fall asleep during foreplay, cause the pills you take are more your forte
-dont be a shy kinda guy, i bet its beautiful/come on baby let me see what you're hiding underneath
-lets go all the way tonight, no regrets
-your original, cannot be replaced
i like her new songs. cause they so goood. :D

i think i had more topics
but i just cant remember them right now. oh yeah. i am happy that i am seeing more gay supportive videos now. :D and some awesome videos feature gay people. :D

and i shall stop here. actually im thinking of multiple posts in a day, but we'll see. :O